This day…

8 years ago today my life changed. A door didn’t just open up for me…it flew off the hinges and I have never regretted it. I learned what true love really was and felt it with every fiber of my being. My heart began to heal, my soul to warm itself by the heat of passion and fire that surrounded me. I began to truly love myself and forgive myself. I began to live.

I have never been one of those girls that believes in the things like Valentine’s Day. I have always believed that we should show the love we have for someone everyday and shouldn’t need an excuse to do so or to do something special or caring. I have never expected gifts or flowers or candy on any occasion. Hell, all I have ever wanted for my birthday is to be with the one(s) I love and receive birthday wishes. Of course this doesn’t mean I don’t go all out for the people I love if I can.

My point is, I have never been one to make one particular date a big deal. Except one. My anniversary with Laz has always been very important to me. The thing is I have never done this with any other anniversary. But this day is special to me. It goes so far beyond how special Laz is to me, because you should all know by now that he is incredibly special. But I strive to make that a point every day and to tell him that as often as possible. Never has a day gone by that I can remember that I haven’t said I love you to him. He is beautiful and wonderful to me every single day of my life. This date is special to me because of him, because I love him, because of what he has done for me (which is more than I ever dreamed any one person would do) and because my entire life changed from that day on. This date is about us, yes. But it is also about me and the beginning of a journey of massive proportions.

The best way I know how to explain it is in someone elses words, unfortunately.

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…”

– Elizabeth Gilbert

THIS is what Laz did for me and continues to do every day. He is my true soul mate because he challenges me every day. Never has let me give up. Has held me up when I have felt so beaten I could hardly stand. He has been the person that took my breath away and gave me new life. He was the beginning of so many beautiful things in my life. He made me take a look at myself and create my own happiness.

I realize today and have for some time that I did most of the work to become who I am and have the happiness I have found and maintain. But he was a push in the right direction. At the time a good reason to reevaluate my life and happiness. Without his love, passion, support, strength and “Captain Blunt”….I really don’t think I would be here today.

So today isn’t a special day just because it is my anniversary with him. Its special because its the anniversary of my eyes opening and me seeing the new light in my life. It was the true beginning of my life. And without him, I never would have gotten there.

8 years ago today I fell in love. Took my life back. Became truthful with myself and the world. Met the greatest man I would ever know. Found my soul mate. Began to love myself and see my self worth….and became me.

Happy Anniversary, my love. You are my best friend, soul mate, lover, partner, savior and my spiritual husband. I love you more each and every day with every breath I take. I am the luckiest woman in the world and am so very grateful for your love, how you have touched my life and will continue to and everything you have done for me. Loving you is the best thing in my life.

About Ethical Slut

I'm a poly, kinky, bisexual, Ethical Slut that rides the swinger line. I am a huge advocate for being who you are openly with no apologies. I am just trying to help the world understand like minded people like myself one word at a time. This is the poly and kink world for people like you and me!

Posted on October 8, 2012, in Personal and tagged , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. And 8 years ago was the start of my healing as well. You have been there though the first of it and for every step in between. At times I have tried to push you away, I have tried to ignore you and have even tried to shove you out the door. I can’t imagine my life had you accepted any of the above. As time has progressed, you have been my rock and my stability. The voice that asks me the questions my own conscience should be asking me….and doing so in a way where you are just making sure I know what I am doing. Not judging or asking to limit who I am.

    You are the one who has celebrated my successes and held me in moments of weakness. You have been there for me, my kids and two slightly retarded dogs. You are not only the one who has been there as I have repeatedly torn down that tower….you are part of it’s foundation.

    You are my Love, my good girl and my soul mate.

    I love you and thank you for the richness you have brought to my world.

  2. Congrats to you both…..may many more celebrations be forthcoming.

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